frustration
when you have like years without feeling something, you get frustrated. it goes in so many ways that you don't know how to tackle it.
you want more, you want the norm. everybody got the drama and the passion, and you got the four walls of your room with great internet access that do nothing for you.
you tell yourself all the bad words that you can imagine and a little more.
action. that's only a wish, i don't want it to be a dream.
